There are some medicines that work on the surface, soothing symptoms. And then there are medicines that dive deep, into the cells, the stories, the shadows, the subtle layers of who we are and begin working at the root of things to heal and illuminate.
For me, ayahuasca has been that medicine.
My journey with ayahuasca has not been recreational. It has been reverent, raw, and deeply sacred. It has stripped away illusions, cleared stagnant energies, and helped me purify not only my physical body, but also my mind, subtle body, and spirit.
Ayahuasca is not a quick fix. She is not here to numb or distract. She is a teacher — one of the deepest I’ve ever known — and she works in realms that most of us have never been taught to perceive.
A Subtle Body Technology
One of the most incredible things about ayahuasca is how she works with the subtle body, the energetic system that underlies our physical form. The same system that the chakras, nadis, and meridians belong to.
Ayahuasca knows how to scan and locate frozen, stuck, or misaligned energies in the system. Places we’ve stored trauma, unexpressed emotion, inherited patterns, or unconscious beliefs. Sometimes we’ve been carrying these imprints for decades — or generations.
She goes right there.
It’s not conceptual. It’s kinesthetic. You feel it. You might feel energy moving through your spine, your gut, your throat, your womb — areas where something has been locked away. She finds it, she works with it, and she supports you in releasing it.
It’s not always comfortable. But it is deeply intelligent.
Purging: An Energetic Release
One of the most misunderstood parts of ayahuasca work is the purging.
Yes, purging can look like vomiting. But it’s not the kind of vomiting you’d associate with being sick or drinking too much alcohol. This is an energetic release and the physical expression of something being cleared from your system.
And purging can happen in many ways:
- Vomiting (la purga): the most traditional form, often linked to releasing grief, fear, or spiritual toxins
- Crying: a deep emotional purge through the waters of the heart
- Sweating: a release through the pores of the body, often tied to fire energy and resistance
- Yawning or shaking: subtle energetic pathways unwinding
- Laughter: yes, joy and release are also medicine
- Movement: spontaneous gestures, rocking, or stretching .. this is the body freeing itself somatically
Each purge is a blessing. It may not feel glamorous. But what leaves is something that no longer belongs in your system. Something that may have been stored there for lifetimes.
Ancestral Healing: Seven Years Back, Seven Years Forward
Another extraordinary dimension of this medicine is how it works beyond the individual. Ayahuasca doesn’t just heal you…she works within the field of your ancestral lineage.
Many traditions say the medicine moves seven generations back and seven generations forward, bringing healing to patterns that were inherited and unconsciously passed down.
Through this work, I’ve come face to face with old wounds I didn’t know were mine — grief from my maternal line, fear from my father’s side, contracts I didn’t consciously make but had been living out. Ayahuasca shows them to you, not to punish or shame you, but to offer a path toward release, forgiveness, and freedom…for you, and for those who came before and after.
A Teacher of Unwavering Truth
More than anything, ayahuasca has been a teacher.
She doesn’t flatter. She doesn’t coddle. But she is deeply loving in her clarity. She will show you what is misaligned, what is untrue, what is hiding in the dark — and then she will ask if you are ready to let it go. And when you say yes — even if trembling — she supports you.
Ayahuasca has taught me that healing is not linear. That my body holds infinite intelligence. That energy is real and moves in ways we can learn to feel and follow. That love and awareness are the deepest medicines of all.
Integration Is Everything
This work doesn’t end when the ceremony closes. The days, weeks, and even years after are part of the healing. The medicine plants seeds that continue to unfold.
That’s why integration practices — like movement, breathwork, journaling, trauma-informed support, and nervous system regulation — are so vital. For me, methods like Ecstatic Flow have become ways to embody and stabilize the energetic openings that ayahuasca catalyzed.
In Gratitude
I don’t take this path lightly. Ayahuasca is not for everyone, and it’s not to be approached casually. But for those who feel genuinely called and who walk the path with humility and respect, she can be a guide unlike any other.
She is the jungle’s whisper. The grandmother’s breath. The fierce and tender mirror. She is not here to fix everything for you. She is here to remind you who you are beneath the pain, the patterns, the forgetting.
And for that, I am endlessly grateful.
